I’m haunted by the fates of people whose paths crossed mine, however briefly.
The guy I went to uni with – by every measure an exemplary human being, who met an early demise alone in a seedy hotel room overseas.
The woman from work who went to court for sexual assault charges – with a minor.
Of course, I barely knew them. But seeing their names in the headlines shocked me to the core.
And of course, closer to home, I’ve been faced with the reality that you can never really know another person.
If someone betrayed you before, how will you know if they’re lying in future?
You don’t know what will happen. Trust – so hard won, so easily broken, and not quickly repaired.
And with the Epstein file horrors trickling out, I gotta say, I can’t even engage with that story – but god, does it make me despair of it all.
I think it was about 10 years ago when politics started shifting around the world – I could sense it in election results in country after country. It made me uneasy. And now, here we are. Can’t say I could ever have imagined things would be this bad.
This is a rambly post, I know – is this really what I came out of hibernation to say? Well, it seems a good as time as any, particularly with the full moon in Leo.
Yes, I’ve gotten deep into astrology. Who would’ve thought? Not me. But, over and over, it has proven to be uncannily on point for me. The evidence, for me personally, is undeniable. It explains a lot. How I’ve been so damn lucky career-wise (and I can finally feel secure in that – like I don’t need to wait for the other shoe to drop or the streak to end). Why I can’t say the same for home, family, close relationship dynamics. The fact that I could never really get into the intense, extreme, consistent dedication to money stuff like the rest of the personal finance blog world – I’m not meant to. And so much more!
All this to say… I’m not the same person who last showed up here nearly 2 years ago. Going back beyond that, my experiences in my 30s have irreversibly altered me. I miss the old days of the blogosphere, and I know they’re never coming back. I don’t know what I want to do with this space going forward. But, I’m still here. I’m better than ever. Living life. I can’t wait to see what 2026 has in store.
