What if, what if…

I mentioned the other day that I was worried about my job stability. And when I start to get worried about, well, anything, I tend to go overboard to compensate. Freaking out about lack of cashflow? I overload on mystery shopping assignments and waste far too much time looking at ads for casual/one off jobs.

There may not be enough FT positions currently advertised for me to go all Rambo on, but I am applying for one role – basically coordinating publications across my university. As far as I can tell, it’s a permanent position, and though I’ve been putting off compiling my app, I’m at the stage where I just need to copy, paste and hit send.

Now I’m starting to freak out. What if I get offered it? The position starts almost immediately, and I have a fairly long notice period (although I’m sure we could work something out). Can I do the job? What if it’s a bad move long term, because it’s a move slightly off the journalism path? Do I even want to take it? Should I just stay put, cross my fingers and hope for the best? As much as I love my workplace, as much as my manager might like me and want to see me shine, there certainly are no guarantees.

I’m just going to press enter, and forget about the whole thing unless I hear anymore back from them.

7 thoughts on “What if, what if…

  • Reply SS4BC January 9, 2010 at 09:26


    Don’t worry about much of this until/unless you get offered the position.

    And I wouldn’t worry too much about the “long term” off journalism thing, in this economy no one would blame you or fault you for taking a position outside of journalism. Especially since you’re still keeping up your writing!

  • Reply paranoidasteroid January 9, 2010 at 11:20

    Haha, don’t worry about the bad things that might happen! If you get the job, they will be willing to work with you.

    And if you want to be a journalist, there’s no problem in taking a full-time job doing something else. Do you know of anywhere that you can freelance? If all else fails, you have the blog as proof of your writing ability.

  • Reply eemusings January 9, 2010 at 11:31

    I do a spot of writing on the side for a couple of places, although I’m not sure if I’d be able to keep both of those up.

    What I REALLY need to do is figure out exactly what I want and where I want to be so I can plan out how to get there. And a contingency plan should I end up jobless in the near future 🙂

  • Reply The Asian Pear January 9, 2010 at 13:38

    hahaha. yeah. I think you’re over thinking it. I always do the same thing but in the end I always think, “well, you never know…”

    who knows? they might see your resume and think you’re perfect for another postition to start immediately and it’s your dream job right? 🙂

  • Reply Revanche January 9, 2010 at 20:49

    I totally always overthink it – it’s a visceral reaction. I’ve got my fingers crossed for whatever the best outcome is for you.

  • Reply Tasha January 10, 2010 at 17:45

    You’re not alone. I do that plenty myself! I evaluate, then I worry, then I calm myself down. It’s a cycle for me but I think having my husband (who’s chill most of the time) helps. You’re doing great I’m sure 🙂

  • Reply SeeJaneGetRich.com January 11, 2010 at 08:34

    I am with you with the all out panic mode. I think its a natural reaction similar to a moder version of a fight-or-flight response. I wish you the best with your job.

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